Whew!
What a couple of days I have had!
I seem to have the diet and exercise thing under control. I am making good choices and trying to live up to my own expectations. Good things. I try to be good to me as much as possible. A VERY good thing.
I am in trouble with my DH. He seems to think that I have been spending WAY too much time online and is ready for me to be, well, ME again. Why am I not outside polishing my tack the way I used to? Why am I not grooming the horses alot the way I used to?
Why is '3d living' below the INTERNET. He says I have two lives now. On in real life and one in here....online.
Him..."Why does THE INTERNET come before me?"
Me.. "Huh?" Looking around, wondering where that came from.
Him... " You are always on THE INTERNET. Do you like them better than you like us?"
Me... "HUH?"
WTH!!!
This came out of left field for me. AM I spending too much time logged in? DO I feel like the people of quitnet (a select few mind you) understand what I am going through better than he? A never smoker. Now that I have my smoking in hand, WHY do I still spend so much time there?
I don't know what has led to this. If he is trying to control me, which is COMPLETELY outside of his normal character, or if he is truly hurt by my double life. I know that for the sake of my marriage I must TRY to fix it. That is what I do. I see problems and try to act. To fix. Or at least to patch it up as best I can.
He has not threatened me with divorce or anything like that. He isn't like that. But I must do my part and try to understand where he is coming from.
SO, for now, I won;t be in as much, although I will still be blogging every couple of days. Just wanted toi get that out.
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