YES, 15 day's, I feel good, my walk with the lord has grown stronger and stronger, I am so greatful for that!
I am having a REAL strugle concidering my 39 Y/O husband has decided to join the Army, he is still at his Physical portion, since yestrday at 4pm and it's now almost 5pm, and the LAST step of the final sign the papers and off to boot camp he goes...
I've had a tough enough time with my 20 Y/O going into the Army 1 1/2 years ago, went to Afghanistan for 6 months, got married 2 months later to a girl he hardly knew, I mean she is nice, but put the brakes on would someone PLAESE?
So here I sit wondering what part of the country I'll be living in as an Army wife, "HELLO" It's about me right now, I know sounds selfish as can be but come on, and to boot we have a 4 Y/O daughter, I mean how will she handle this, can I be a single mom NOW?
I feel overwhelmed, I have NO desire to use any drug of any kind, I just feel depressed I can say, yes depressed!
He, "my husband" is a good man and provider, we went through a real ROUGH patch, I mean ROUGH, "Jerry Springer" like stuff...Not knowing if a divorce is what I wanted or want or what... But here I am, I am drug free and
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh although I'm going through all this STUFF I am still thanking the Lord, I am fustrated but OK........
If you've made it this far and can understand my ramble "Bless your heart" I just had to release my Overload....
Peace and Hugs my friends.. Day by Day, Min by Min....
