I think my biggest trigger is being lonely and wishing I had someone special in my life. I know I am not ready for a relationship and will not be for quite some time but every now and then I think....well, I am 43 and not getting any younger...maybe I should just go for it. I am not capable of having a healthy relationship right now. I know you must love yourself before you can love somebody else...praying about it was helping tremendously but now....that old familiar feeling is lurking....!