I have officially made it 15 days without purging/bingeing/restricting/ excessively exercising :)
I feel so much better physically and mentally. I have more energy already and my mood has improved. I like knowing that I can do this on my own. This cycle has an end if I just keep fighting and not give up.
I don't need my eating disorder. I have not been in control of my life for five years. Even though it started out by helping me cope with different events in my life, somewhere along the way my anorexia/ bulimia turned into a compulsive addiction and 'monster'. I am finally figuring out how to free myself from it.
I realize life is too short to waste it by letting an addiction consume it. There are so many things I could be doing other than making myself miserable and isolating myself from everyone I love and who loves me.
I look at my mom and see her outlook on life. I want to live my life just as she does. Despite everything she has been through because of her cancer diagnosis, she is always positive and looks for the good in everything. She doesn't let her illness get her down, and I won't let mine. When I fall, I will pick myself up over and over until I finally win this battle. All because I know it will be worth it in the end when I finally have the life I want, being a doctor helping people and making the most of my time here.
