Letting go and letting God. We are always learning when and how to do this. Some days it’s easy, some days it’s pure heck.
I’ve hit a big one with my 18 ½ year old honor roll, scholarship, and college bound daughter. I thought I was one of the lucky ones and got past the drama and drugs. She’s my only child and the main reason I’m sober. These past two weeks have been draining because it’s a shock at what is occurring and I’m just plain not used to “my” child doing things. I know plenty of parents who have experienced a whole lot with their children, but no, not me I thought. Wake up call. Peer pressure at its best I see.
Right now, I’m ok, because I have God, and God is watching over my daughter. I have let go, but it sure is hard. I’m having to deal with the ex which isn’t that fun either, but I see that I’ve grown and I’m not all bent out of shape by seeing him.
But, my child has hurt me, and I’m not used to that. We will have to build the bridge of trust again. She’s away right now, getting her “thoughts” together, so I’m not sure where things are headed, but its God’s will and not mine. Lord give me strength.
I’m just letting my recovery family know of the issues going on. I know you support me as I truly support you.
Have a great weekend! For those who know me, almost school time! Summer is about gone!
