Gratitude and Remember When
I just had the privilege of playing a 2 day member/guest tournament at the golf course I’m privileged to belong to.
We did not win a thing, but played as well as we could for 2 long days, 27 holes the second day. It feels good to know that you went out and did the best you could, competed fairly and honestly, and enjoyed every thing that was around and stayed clean and sober.
I am filled with gratitude and do remember when!
I remember well when an event like this would have been a great excuse to get “lost” with the help of my “outside” agents. I would have hung with those who got as “hammered” as I did, would have gambled my brains out and “bought” for many, and would have spent little time enjoying the company of my guest and those I played with. I certainly would not have taken the time to enjoy the surroundings, and would usually “hear” about something I may or may not have done, felt guilty, and inside obsessed about what others thought and then dismissed these thoughts with an insincere “who cares”. I really did care!
My guest for the last couple of days is a real friend. A man I knew through competitive sports in high school, and who my higher power put me together with many years ago. We bonded.
He has fought a victorious battle with cancer and this past year, had his total ankle replaced. He never complained, even when undergoing heavy duty treatments or staying in the game of life and living with excruciating pain. He is a man of courage and I love him.
I am grateful for having a life that just allowed me to “be” with him for the past couple of days-competing, laughing, sharing philosophies and lives. He is a friend and a real gift, and I am so grateful for the journey of life recovery that allowed me to have these past 2 days in his company!
I remember the day that at this time after an event, I’d still be carrying on and paying the price, including the wondering what really happened, for a few days after.
Sitting here, reflecting, gives me a bench mark to measure against. Through hard work but with a ton of help, the journey to the recovery of a real life has made a huge positive change in how I live and relate to myself, and to the world I live in!
At any event like the one just finished, you can’t help but notice a few people who reminded me of the me that was before I had an awakening. I sincerely pray that they find a journey of their own.
What a great 2 days, and I’m truly grateful to have been able to experience and enjoy!
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