New Memories(Feelings
Pain comes ... sometimes old pain... and i am reliving it now...
But there is Hope and Healing and Forgiveness in Jesus name.
My Pastor/Therapist has been helping me to GO-There.. into the memories that i have tried to suppress for so long... sO many therapists have wanted to help and encourage me so that i could unleash the pain... and receive the healing....but evidently i was not ready.. just did not want to feel THAT PAIN AGAIn... and so... my addiction came... to be there as a comfort to ignore what i knew that i had to deal with.
Abuse is never easy to deal with... especially the sexual abuse of a child.... especially from her beloved Father.. her hero...
After 3 hrs of Very Intense Therapy.. Pastor Mike stayed with me as i violently opposed the body memories...He kept asking me to pray and own what was done to me. i proteted vehently! and it was a little Girl.. very little girl.. crying out in protest. And then an epiphany... the love of Jesus is Healing the pain... and i am slowly able to accept bits and pieces... more memories are coming.. and more needs to be revealed.. and i need to go to those awful places once more to be FREE to Live LIFE...
SIGH!!!
well, i must go now... Just want to encourage the process... and for you, my family, to be able when it is time, find someone to help you deal with the Demons of your past..
Love
jodyB
Tags: Painaddiction ForgivenessGod
