So Thursday night came along and I had to share at a meeting's 6th @Home. I was extremely nervous as it was only the second time was sharing. When I got to the meeting there was more than a hundred people, and my parents came for the first time! But it was wonderful, I didn't speak much about active addiction as all of our stories are the same: We were powerless over our addiction and our lives had become unmanageable. That's it. That's why we go to meetings. Even though I had anorexia, cut myself or did things that others didn't do, step one is our story. So I shared about recovery, the good times and the difficult times. The steps I've worked and the suggestions I followed. For the forst time I enjoyed sharing the hope and gratitude I found with others.
The rest of my weekend was busy. I went to two 21st birthdays, a wedding and an NA soccer game. So the weekend was filled with food... I feel so fat now. I wanted to cut myself this morning, I felt hatred towards my body. I think I'll sit down now and work on my OA step one! I find it so difficult to love myself...
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