Hi everyone. I first joined this site on march 17. I posted one blog, and then I had the relapse from hell. I definitely hit rock bottom. I went back to treatment and was released on May 21. It has taken a while to get back to this website, but I am happy to say that today I have 74 days clean. I just don't know how to change my clean date on my profile.
This time around I finally decided to get honest about all the things I have done in the name of crack. Was it hard? Hell yes!!! But I finally realized and accepted that my secrets were a huge part of my problem. And the truth is that my loved ones already knew a lot of the things I thought I was hiding from them. They just wanted me to admit it.
By the grace of god I still have my husband and kids, although the cops were called to remove me from the house in April. It was truly horrible. But through my honesty I now truly love myself again and my relationships with my family are stronger than ever.
Thanks for listening, and I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday weekend, clean and sober.
