The hustle and bustle is gone and now I can sit and reflect on my daughter and her graduation. 18 years gone by and she graduated from high school with honors. She received a scholarship with her A status throughout the years.
I thank God each day that my drinking didn’t affect her determination. I thank God that the split up after 16 years of marriage didn’t ruin her like I know it can. I thank God that she has forgiven me and she told me the other day that she doesn’t really remember me drinking anymore. I did try to hide it while she was young, and the older she got, it got harder. I still attended functions, ran her around and did what I was supposed to do; cook, clean, hold a full-time job, yet I was miserable due to my drinking husband, so I drank more. But we were there together for her. I stayed in a marriage so she could “be in a stable home”, yeah right. But, something helped because she’s an awesome child now.
She does not drink now and I thank God for that because I know the disease runs wild in the genes, but God is saving her. My mother and I claim through Jesus we have broken the generational curse that holds our family hostage with my daughter and my nephew.
If my drinking kept her from drinking, it’s been worth it. We have had hard times like many here, but I’ve always given it to God.
I’m just rambling about my daughter, happy it’s over for her, and now she’s starting college in August. I’m glad that I didn’t give up on God and stopped the drinking because it was well worth it. It’s not always easy, but I read, pray and go to meetings. I love this site and the support that is here. Anyone new out there reading this please don’t stop before the miracles happen, because they do.
Love you all, Tina
