Im not sure where to start, since so far I don't have any addictions, except to stupidity. I am on Paroxetine, ambien, and xanax. I hate my life. I hate my "boyfriend". I am a hermit. I can't handle the slightest thing, i freak out almost every day. I go to a pyschogist. He kinda helps. But Im still feeling really crappy, and need some help. I got rid of all my friends, or they got rid of me. They were prone to drinking too much or being drug addicts, so i quit hanging out with them, and then the rest decided i was too judgemental, since i couldnt explain "sorry guys i cant keep drinking and smoking pot all the time, ill get addicted since ive got serious anxiety and depression problems."My "boyfriend" sucks. He gets upset when i get upset, which turns into abusive arguments and cut downs and panic attacks, where then i take xanax, calm down, and then we get ok, but then he gets mad because apparently im only ever nice if im on copious amounts of pills.I dont have more than a few people here for me every once in a while. It's nice when they're around, but really terrible when they're not. Im home alone almost all the time. I cut myself...and im scared ill keep doing it if i dont get more help. I have all the pre-requisits to addictive behavior and im trying hard to stay away from it all, but its really hard when i feel so crappy. can anyone relate?
