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Messy Mind
Posted On 05/12/2008 02:23:03 by Stevie

My mind has been so far off lately it seems like everything I think is not me thinking. Its either lost or blank. Never know what I am doing anymore. I know I am doing great in life but my mind is just not believing that at all. Its rather weird. There are days when I wish I would wake up and just be okay. But nah. I know that would be far to easy. Like someone says, I wish my troubles would melt away like lemon drops in my mouth. That would be just nice. Though I love me right now I am just unsure. Things are happening and its making me uneasy. I am unsure and becoming sad more everyday. I would like to drink  just because I miss drinking with my best friend but I know that wont make a difference. One day I really wanted to drink with her so we went and got some apple juice and drank it all. It was rather fun. But I am doing good thus far, I suppose.



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From: jd
05/12/2008 15:39:39

my brain was mush when i first got sober.  i was slow motion.  in a daze.  i don't recall how long it took for that to go away.  i think when i realized i can live w/o drinking.  or more correctly, i was living long enough w/o drinking that my mind cleared up.

i'm glad you like you today.  that is what will keep you sober.  when you think about drinking, look back at where it got you.  where do you want to be?

keep working it.  be patient.  pray and believe you can do this w/ help.  you are not alone.

God bless.

From: flachic75
05/12/2008 14:57:35

I can agree.. I live in my head w/ the itty bitty committee. One day at a time.. I try not to go there..



From: DennisS
05/12/2008 06:28:52

     Anytime someone moves out of their comfort zone they get apprehensive. When I got sober I felt like I didnt know what to do or how to act. I was doing OK, but everything felt weird, like I was in a movie and didn't know my lines. I had to learn how to deal with life and my emotions without alcohol. It passed. IMHO too, you are doing good thus far. Keep coming back...
Take care,
Dennis

From: biggybiggs74
05/12/2008 03:47:11

have fun in recovery. apple juice is a new one, but ok. at least you didn't have to drink and thats a victory. life is gonna continue to hit us in the face. but continue to work hard in your recovery at watch the miracles happen. " we will intuitively know how to handle things that once baffeled us" thats part of the promises of the 12 steps. your doing good keep it up and find joy in living again.

big hugs
billy

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