Tomorrow I celebrate my 34th birthday as well as 18 months sober.. This is my 3rd time around these rooms in 15 years.. I would always go out at a little over a year.. I can't point out exactly whats different this time, because its many things..
My drug of choice is ANYTHING to change the way I feel or think..
I truly believe that my Higher Power has been working in my life all along.. From when I was at my lowest of lows until now.. I'm stubborn, pigheaded, and egocentric.. When I had finally beaten myself down and lost EVERYTHING, I finally gave up control..
A little over a year and a half ago I was sittin in jail looking at a 16month prison sentence.. I had lost my daughter, my freedom, and most of my mind.. It was easy, I had nothing.. So I prayed for the first time from my heart.. And little by little, the miracles began to happen.. I'm not saying they weren't happening all along, but I know that for the first time, my eyes were opened to the love and the Power of God in my life.. Needless to say, I didn't go to prison..
Today, I have my daughter back.. I've reconnected with the rest of my family.. And I now own and operate a Recovery Store.. I want to say I'm proud of myself.. But I didn't do it by myself.. This program has saved my life..
The biggest gift I have received has been the gift of Faith..
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