Dusting off the soapbox again. Donning the rusty aromor and doing the Don Quixote thing. This is for anyone out there that thinks they can get away with it (whatever "it" may be) for just another day. Boy, are you wrong. I've got five people dying to tell you why.
It's been a bad month for anyone in recovery around here (or anywhere else for that matter), whatever the addiction. Anytime we lose one of our own it hurts. Our group out here has lost 3 members, one young man who never made in the door and one who made it in but ended back out. Three to alcohol related diseases, one to suicide and another to an overdose. I speak to the last one;
The last was a young man of 20 going through recovery with a new member of our community. He was really trying to make his program work. The treatment facility was strict and any indication of substance abuse and you are out of the program - no exceptions whatsoever. The day before the lad's 28 day treatment was over his test came back positive. He contested it and they submitted the sample for in depth testing. But he was still out of the program. No exceptions, remember.
The in depth analysis came back stating he was clean three days later ~ the day after the young man died of an overdose.
What went wrong? Did he lose hope? Why did the test come back positive? Couldn't they give him a break? Why didn't someone do something?
None of those questions matter in the least now. He died, just as all the others here and everywhere else have died. Nothing we say or do can bring them back.
Often one hears that somone has one more drunk in them, but they don't have another recovery. There you have it in a nutshell. Ninety miles an hour down a dead end street. Go out enough times and you will die.
This disease kills people - and doesn't care who or why. It just wants as many people dead as it can have. Preferably slowly and in great pain.
God (for whatever reason) has granted me another day of life. The reason He did doesn't really matter either. But I thank Him, praise Him and will do His Will wherever I can, forever grateful for that 24 hours.
Nuff said...
Dennis
