!!WARNING: This is another triggering blog! If easily triggered, do NOT read!!
This pretty much says it all...
"Never Too Late" -- Three Days Grace
This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong
Who would have guessed it
I will not leave alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like it's not too late
It's never too late
Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late
No one will ever see
This side reflected
And if there's something wrong
Who would have guessed it
And I have left alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like
It's not too late
It's never too late
Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late
The world we knew
Won't come back
The time we've lost
Can't get back
The life we had
Won't be ours again
This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong
Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late (It's never too late)
It's not too late
It's never too late
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I don't know how much longer I can keep doing this...I'm losing myself, slowly but surely...
And please don't think that this is for attention...it's not.
I am reaching out to the people I trust...you guys.
I'm sitting here crying, hating myself, hating everything about me and wishing I had the courage to just F***ing do it...but I don't. Not this time around. The taste of charcoal is all too fresh in my mind. The horrible naseua and the constant vomiting is too unbearable right now. It's almost worse than the actual act of doing it...I'm safe for now...but I don't know for how much longer.
Oh well, it's all the same in the end...I just wish I could love myself for who I am and could be happy, if only for a little while...
Tags: Sad Unhappy Exhausted Drained Anxious
