These four songs...I've had them on repeat for the last few hours...
"Good Advice" (Acoustic) by JJ Alberhasky
I'm just looking for some good advice,
'Cause Danny is so distant now,
Carol's not the friend she used to be...
Why's this always happening to me?
After school I come in through the front door,
And feel so relieved,
No one saw what I've got up my sleeve.
The face I keep,
'Cause this is how it is.
You step into the lunch room,
They don't know who you are.
You sit down for your dinner,
They don't know who you are.
You look into the mirror,
You don't know who you are.
What's this disease?
Could someone tell me how to fight it please?
I like to laugh a lot,
It helps me forget, so I do it all the time.
It takes how ugly I feel off my mind.
Everyone knows what I show them,
Still I feel the pressure like the tide,
To split my skull and spill the swamp inside,
It's getting far too difficult to hide.
Be still my pride,
'Cause this is how it is.
You step into the lunch room,
They don't know who you are.
You sit down for your dinner,
They don't know who you are.
You look into the mirror,
You don't know who you are.
You want to have a meaning,
And write it on the wall.
You just want to be held,
And told you're worth it after all.
You want to be a perfect fire,
Burning wide and tall.
And to be free,
Of all this terrible impurity.
I'm sorry I did not mean,
To take you so far inside my desires,
I was only looking for advice.
'Cause Danny is so distant now,
Carol's not the friend she used to be,
Why does everyone abandon me?
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"Pills to Help Me Sleep" by Jon Black
I've got pills to help me sleep,
That I rarely take.
I meant to put my mind to rest,
But I waste away the day.
I need some sleep.
A reminder of your love,
To help me believe.
The things that you've done,
For me, for me, for me.
I've got enemies inside,
That I try to fight.
They tear apart my confidence,
They terrorize my mind.
I need some sleep.
A reminder of your love,
To help me believe,
The things that you've done,
For me, for me, for me.
For me, for me, for me.
No I don't, want to live this way, anymore
No I don't, want to live this way, anymore
No I don't want to live this way, anymore
In fear,
It's fear,
Only fear.
In fear,
It's fear,
Only fear.
I've got pills to help me sleep,
Sirens on the shelf,
A cylinder that sings to me,
When I'm lying to myself.
I need some sleep.
A reminder of your love,
To help me believe,
The things that you've done
For me, for me, for me.
For me, for me, for me.
For me, for me, for me.
---
"Years and Years" by JJ Alberhasky
I have work to do,
I have years and years to put my mind into.
I have debts to pay,
The swarming ones that grow the more you look away.
Set my hands to work,
Set my watch in time with those of office clerks.
Set my hands to work,
And frenzy until I peak and go as low as dirt.
But I would lay it down,
I would lay it down,
I would lay it down,
If you would ask me first.
I should leave to Maine,
I could slowly go there on a sleeper train,
I should leave to Maine,
I've friends there so good at tranquilizing pain.
But East may not be best,
I think I could find a home within the West.
East may not be best,
I know other ways could leave me just as blessed.
So I would it lay it down,
I would lay it down,
I would lay it down,
If you would just hold me to your chest.
I could lean too far,
Lean into my job and end up at the bar.
I could lean too far,
I know myself too well to know I'm safe from scars.
I have work to do,
I have years and years to never follow you.
What if what do,
Years and years to find out it's only mostly true.
So I would lay it down,
I would lay it down,
I would lay it down,
If you would just want me to.
I would lay it down,
I would lay it down,
I would lay it down,
If you'd want just want me to.
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"Mirror" by Jon Black
I can't see bright colors,
In this dark, dreary world.
I can't see my purpose,
Or my dreams unfurl.
With every passing moment,
My vision seems to fade.
From gorgeous golden sunset,
To black, white and gray.
I need change.
I'm dying,
I'm crying,
But I'm just too proud,
To let my guard down.
And honestly the truth is,
I hate who I've become.
Who have I become?
Only in this mirror,
I can look into my eyes.
Past my false complexion and
Straight into my lies.
With every passing moment,
I feel the social airs,
Push me towards perfection,
'Cause that's what this world demands.
And it's not fair...
I'm dying,
I'm crying,
But I'm just too proud,
To let my guard down.
And honestly the truth is,
I hate who I've become.
Who have I become?
There's a storm,
Brewing inside,
And all it needs is time,
There's a voice,
Calling inside,
For someone...
Anyone...
Someone can you hear me?
I'm dying,
I'm crying,
But I'm just too proud,
To let my guard down.
And honestly the truth is,
I hate who I've become...
Tags: Depressed
