Things are great..!! Things are awsome..!! This are so looking up in ways I have never deemed possible...! I couldn't have asked for better stuff to happen to me all at once....
Then arrrggghhhh...
My date was great..the girl I went out with.. great..very cute red head (I love redheads..!) Intelligent. Possitive. Just great. Going to go see Kronos Quartet at UCLA Saterday Night. It's going to be an awesome show. Told her I don't drink, just sorta tossed it out there, her responce.. "I bet you were a bad boy once.." yeah.. once. I think she's fine with it.. So yeah.. I'm happy.
Friend just found a place. Apartment right off of Colorado, down the street from the heart of Old Town Pasadena..yeah, you know.. where that Rose Parade thingy took place..He want's me to go with. This means that I am now officially out of the sober living game. Uh-huh. After putting in over a year.. I am now going to have my OWN ROOM..!! And.. splitting $1,300 three ways.. Ka-CHING.. Let's see.. Motorcycle, not scooter.. baked instead of plain tofu. (Oh yeah..I'm vegetarian), my own desk, painting till 3am, doing my music with out interference..So..yeah.. I'm Really Happy..!
Guy walks into my showroom today...we chat.. he works at a different showroom that I'm familiar with. No biggy. The other day, I get a call. It seems he leaving his place.. this cat has been in the biz for like 20 years.. he says that since he's leaving, he needs to find a replacement.. he says that I would be perfect. Tells me to take a look at the place. It's like, "wait dude, you just offered ME as a suitable replacement for YOU..??" Me..? Moi..?? I used to design structures along time ago. One such job was for the military.. I did this really great bridge, for our government sitting in a bar with a pitcher of beer once. (if they only knew..) Now I get an offer from a fellow with 20 years under his belt in the same industry I am. And I only have like 2 years. Wanna know what the problem here is..?? I came to this place where I am at now when the company was on the vurge of financial callapse. I took this place, fixed it.. and now they have a fighting chance. The only problem is that I did it because the owner couldn't. This is NOT me gloating, it is NOT me being conceited or over doing what really happened. I did what needed to be done and that is what happened. People are getting paid and the place came out of there hole because of what I did. Now, I am the manager. I told my boss I wouldn't leave. But now.. this place I am at is so f**ked up because my boss is incapable of running it.. so I did it. The stress is starting to get to me because it is SOOOO NOT NEEDED TO BE THE WAY IT IS..! But that is how she has it. (soory boss) I love the lady, but now this guy said I would do better where he is at.. well, I checked out the place tonight..
It is F***ing beautiful...
It brought a tear to my eye it was so beautiful. I go to talk to the people tomorrow.. To work hear, would be my idea of heaven at work..with more money of course..the problem is though, if I leave my current boss.. others will follow, and the place will calapse once again...for good this time. It doesn't have to but I know she won't be able to handle the problems that the business is still facing.. I feel so bad, but I have to think of my own ass here. I did what I could, but now.. it's like to stay there would be career suicide, which would then lead me to my own due to all the stress I really don't need..!! But she's like so happy with me... and I told her I wouldn't leave...
I feel guilty... but I didn't know I was going to get an offer that morning.. One could say it's my higher power because all these happened all in a period of about a week.. the girl..the apartment.. the new job (maybe).... it's all great stuff...
So what's my F***ing problem...??? 
And yeah... I am very capable of being happy...I just feel like I am letting my old boss down (hard). BUT I AM NOT HERE TO SAVE THE WORLD...! RIGHT..?? Just me..right..? RIGHT..???
uuughhhh...
~anjil~
