The past few days I've been getting a lot of text mesages from my friend asking 'whats up? how are you? lets hang out' and all i answer back is 'nothing, im fine, im buisy' you know trying to drop him.
well, i dont know if that was such a great idea..
Today we had no school becuase it wsa -30F, so he texted me around noon asking to hang out, and I told him i couldn't becuae I was already with my other friend Jessi, which i was with her. we went out to eat.
Then later tonight i went to my boyfriends house so i could use his computer for a school project, everything was going really well when i got a call from my best friend, he asked if i hurd the news, and i said.. well no, what are you talking about? and he said dustin died tonight, he over dosed.
and i have never met dustin, hes just a huge drug dealer that everyone knows and my best friend ran away to his house nd dustin introduced him to cocain. so obviously i didnt really like him too much.
But when my friend told me, i just said "aww im sorry, but i guess thats what happens when you abuse drugs you know" and that just SET HIM OFF.
He was soo mad at me, he was talking soo loud that my boyfriend hurd every single word he said.
well, he hung up on me and sent me this text message, and i quote, "wow becky F**k off, u dont understand s**t about drugs or anything and latley youve been a BI**H so suck a cock. i know that you dont like me right now but wen one of my best friends die the least you could do is show a little F***ing emotion. F**k you"
..yeahh. so then i texted him back and told him to call me.
so he calls me...
and he yelled at me for saying what i said and i just said, 'sorry i didnt know him but its the truth, wen you abuse drugs, youll od. truth hurts but danile is what'll kill you, you have to understand that.
and he said
well! my best F***ing friend died, your a BI**H how could you show no sympathy! i cant belive you! that was a BI**H move! your unbeliveable! and why havent we been talking lately?! i try to hang out with you, iv been texting you and calling you and talking to you and i cant get anything out of you!
and i said
im sorry he died, but i just said the truth, that..is..what..happens..when..you..abuse..drugs..and as for not talking to you, i just realized that theres nothing i can do to stop you from doing drugs, so why try anymore? you know i mean i tryed, but whatever, and you and i both know you only hung out with dustin when he had drugs for you. are you sure thats a best friend?
and he just said
I CANT BELIVE YOU! YOU DONT KNOW HIM! HOW COULD YOU SAY THAT! SUCK A DICK BECKY YOUR WORTHLESS AND YOU SAY YOUR TRYING TO BE A GOOD FRIEND FOR ME?!!? YEAH RIGHT! YOUR THE WORST FRIEND IV EVER HAD! YOU DONT CARE AT ALL, YOUR MAKING THINGS WORSE, I GO TO YOU BEUCASE I THOUGHT YOU WOULD BE THERE FOR ME WHEN ONE OF MY FRIEDNS DIE AND THAT ALL YOU SAY!!!!
well i just said,
NOW you come to me for support? NOW you do? now that YOU want to talk about how one of your friends OVER DOSED i'm supposed to drop everything and talk to you about it? why dont you talk to one of your other friends?
and hes like
WAY TO LEAD ME ON I THOUGHT WE WERE STILL FRIENDS AND YOUR JUST BLOWING ME OFF IF YOU DONT WANT TO BE FRIENDS ANYMORE TELL ME
and imlike
i dont want to be assosiated with someone like that, i wasnt leading you on, leading you on would be calling you and telling you i want to hang out and then ditching out or something like that, i dont know what to say to you, i miss the old you.
and with that he hung up.
now i just posted blog on myspace and its the lyrics from weezer, we are all on drugs.
i love that song.
and he commented it saying i have no respect for dustin and he said "becky you BETTER have respect for dustin"
sounds kind of like a threat?
now i tryed to call him and he hs his phone turned off,
and i JUST got off the phone with him he turned it back on,
by the way, he deleted me off myspce but goes on our friends to look at mine.
so i sid, "just so you know i have respect for him, whatever, but i still stick to what i sid ebcuase its the truth and if you wnt to talk about any of this, you can call me, no more of this online or texting stuff okay?"
and he hung up on me.
i think hes starting to maybe realize what could happen to him, he just hung out with dustin yesterday and today hes dead.
and my friend said "ITS NOT LIKE I OD OR ANYTHING!"
and he forgot that i know he has twice, he just threw up a lot and got really really really sick for days.
nd i told him about that and he hung up on me.
if this isnt a wake up call, i dont know what is.
Tags: Depressed
