today has been a very difficult day for me even though the enormity of what i have acheved hs not sank in i know i am a better man today than i have ever been but this is the thing that allways started it off for me the realisation that i am lonley i crave so much for love but back off when it seems to appear the plain and simple truth is , do i really trust any one with my heart at the moment well i don't know but i have to use my program more than ever now i have prayed so much for giudance and i have faith in what will happen is ment to be ,one thing for sure is i dont want or have to have a drink, i have gained enough to know that it wont change one thing so it stay's in the bottle in the supermarket where it belongs
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