I'm 35 years old and I'm cross addicted. My drugs of choice are Meth and Crack. I've been addicted since 1997. I've lost everything that I could lose because of my addictions, my home, my children, jobs, and recently my freedom. I'm currently on every waiting list that I can possibly be on for residential treatment. My boyfriend left for treatment on the 9th of January. I won't get to see him for 9 months or more. I've been a member of AA for 2 yrs, going in and out the door, I have enough white chips to start a poker set. The longest I've ever made it without using was 6 months. I've finally made it through the first step, "I admit that I'm powerless and my life HAS become unmanageable." I got arrested on the 16th of December, sitting in an old church yard. I went thru my whole life and never got into any trouble, now I have a felony possession charge against me and a misdemeanor. I spent a week in jail and got out 2 days before Christmas. I didn't get to see my children for the 2nd year in a row. I can't blame anyone, I got myself here. I didn't get here in one day, and I ain't going to get better in one day. Today was a really hard day. I'm glad I found this website, maybe it will help some. Lord knows I need all the help I can get. 
