I know I’ve whined and complained about my job situation a lot lately. So why should today be any different? I’m kidding!!!
Actually, I was just sitting here thinking about just how blessed I really am. Yes the road of life isn’t always smooth, but it isn’t always as bad as I make it out to be either.
When I think back to all of the things I’ve done in my life, I realize just how lucky blessed I am to be here. I flirted with disaster so many times, but always came out virtually unscathed.
My son almost got suspended last week for writing on a banner at his school. I chuckled as I thought to myself that I never was even called to the principal’s office much less suspended. And trust me, I did plenty (like smoking pot on school grounds) that I could have been suspended or even expelled for.
The more I thought about it I have done plenty of things I could have been arrested for, but wasn’t. I can’t even remember how many times I drove drunk. Not only did I never get arrested, but I never hurt anyone else and I even managed to get myself home in one piece. Amazing!
As a teenager, I tried to end my life twice. The first attempt was half hearted, but the second wasn’t. It is truly only by God’s grace that I live and breathe today. Not only do I live and breathe, but I have had two successful careers, I am a CPA, I have two loving children and I have a husband who loves me.
Some might say that I have been very lucky, but I would have to disagree. I don’t think luck or even coincidence has anything to do with why I am here and who I have become. Even when I wanted nothing to do with God He was working in my life. He was faithful even when I mocked Him.
So on the days when the negative words fill my head, I remind myself that it is a miracle that I am here. God loves me even when I can’t love me. After all I have done and been through, God loves me.
The song, "Amazing Grace" has a very real meaning for me. It is nothing less than amazing grace that I am. I may whine and complain. I may ask God why I am here. I may ask why he took my mother instead of me. Deep down though, I know that He has a purpose for my life. It may not always be clear to me, but it is clear to Him – and that’s all that really matters. All I have to do it reach out, take His hand and try my best to follow.
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