01/08/2008 09:32:51

Well, your blog Really hit home with me.  I have been able to let go of alot of things I can't control, or let God take it for me.  But maybe those were all just the small stuff.  I am having a really hard time letting go of the controlling need to want to help my ex.  And no one else is doing it right, I am the only one....And Boy can I justify the "whys""reasons" the whole lot, if you will to "why I am doing what I'm doing"or what I've done.  But, Yesterday I decided that I have to do something, (I need an extension to take this step, lol) and It has made me let go of the Control.  I know it is the First Step into me letting go,  And I am not being forced to do this,  But to anilize my decission tells me I'm ready to let go, and Let God Help Him and Care For Him.  There are going to be consequences, maybe even some sort of charges along with this step I am taking.  I don't know why but it is harder for me to do this than to face/ask forgiviness from God.  It is hard for me to ask God also,  don't get me wrong, But I think in the "physical" sense is where I am having the hard time. (embarrassment, ridiculed, and maybe even loosing something that is more dear to me than life itself)  I am counting on that "thread of Survival"  I truely am.  Your Blog makes me feel better and right about the decission I have made.   Thank you, luv ya

01/08/2008 02:45:37

How true this is... And it's a problem I still struggle with. Thank you!