Oh so right  - "Life on life's terms" can and does suck - if you let it. 

     I for one can testify that that the deflation I felt upon finding out I was not in control of anything, much less my own corner of reality (alcohol had the reins on that) was along the line of - "why even bother then?". Terminal giveashititus. That is also when I learned about changing my perception.

     I thought I was pretty important. The reality of it is that less than 0.00000000016 percent of the world even knows that I exist, much less gives a rats ass whether I live or die. That shrinks down the part of life that I might have any influence over to a miniscule amount. Then take away the the people I know but can't control. Yeah, I was important all right - to the liquor companies.

     Reality for me now is pretty simple. Life happens, I go on.... If I can't change something that bothers me, I either ignore it or I file it away for later. I absolutely refuse to allow anything to take me back to what I was.

Dennis