hello all! long time no contact. hell, ive not had contact with anyone.
relationships suck! ive been in one for almost a year, in and out, and ive come to realize that not all is what it seems. and ive learned the hard way that one cant believe every promise spoken, sincere as it may sound. i have a golden heart and i look for the best in everyone. i believe ppl when they promise to change, when they say they arent lying, and then i end up hurt. and it didnt cause me to use, but it definitely caused just as much chaos and pain as if i did. i lost my peace of mind during that time. i lost a part of myself that im not sure i can get back. i give pieces of myself to my loved ones along the course of my life, and now at 25 (as crazy as it seems) im not sure how much of me i have left.
i love blogs cuz i can write how i feel and be ok with that. cant anyone critize me of how i feel nor can they crush my dreams... not any longer... i hope to be able to do this on a daily basis... with the holidays coming up, im kinda depressed. this is the only christmas ive celebrated since my mothers death 6 yrs ago... keep me in your prayers... love you guys! i miss yall 2
