Remember the last Monday holiday you faced while using? I know its not pleasant but its important to help enjoy being clean. For example, today's weather in Pittsburgh is absolutely, unequivocally gorgeous. I got up early, made coffee, took a leisurely shower, and had breakfast. Now when I was an active junkie, the first thing entering me mind upon waking would be "did I save any?" 
For 20 years the answer has been no but hope springs eternal. Now a Monday holiday has many effects on me copping ability. Is the dope man out at a a picnic? What stores are open? Can I unload the stuff I boosted?
Of course the reason we picked up two bundles yesterday was so we we would have some today, didn't we? Now it comes back. We did them all ?!?!? NOOOO, it can't BE! Well, maybe there are some in the corners. At least enough to stave off sickness? F**K, better get some clothes on and head to the mall.
THANK GOD things are so so so different in recovery. Enjoy today the right way, like your Higher Power intended it.
Tags: Reflective
