My responsiblity is for myself and how I feel. Nobody can change the way I feel at any given moment. I used to react quickly by anger first reaction because I was afraid to let anyone get close to me. SO they couldn't hurt me or use anything about me against me. NOW I know that they can say anything they want, it's up to me to show other's that it's not true. AS long as I inside of my soul know that I am good natured and hurting nothing or anyone, it matters not what anyone says about me. My therapist told me it was because I was afraid of unacceptance, I said I don't care what others think of me. SHE said on the contrary I cared too much about what they thought about me, SO I have been working on this issue for about a year of more now. I have found peace inside my soul and happiness, with my own self. I don't need anyone's acknowlegment to make me who I am. I am a grateful and blessed person who want to HELP other's any chance I can. Cause when I do it; HELPS me inside to feel good about myself also. I have found a responsible person inside of me. I am responsible for me and only me. I am a mother but I can do all that I can for my sons. NOW they must be responsible without me being there, and so far they have shown alot of courage and been working hard in COLLEGE. I am proud of them and I raised them well. I feel good inside for all the things I have accomplished on my own. I have found my own joy in life.
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