I remain strong and my mind is at ease. Then just one thought or one memory crosses my mind, and the strength I had slips away. Most days I can control the rampant thoughts today has not been one of those days. I cried myself to sleep earlier hoping that maybe I would feel better when I woke up, but that didn't happen, I feel as bad now as I did earlier.
I wish that I could close my eyes and wake up and all of this would be just a bad dream, but when I wake up it's dark and reality hits so very hard.
