For some reason, I just got really Sad all of the sudden.

It probably has something to do with the fact that I got about 5 hours of sleep last night, and I tend to get depressed when I'm exhausted.

It probably also has something to do with the fact that I've been home since 2pm today and had to watch the Jayhawks get their asses kicked by Mizzou while I did six sections of online math homework.

Don't get me wrong, it was a good day. I had a great Thanksgiving, got to see my... Read More

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Hi all -

    Contentious picture in mind today. appearing to be a rural county fair. A rope pulling contest, with a mud pit in the middle. A handful of people in the pit - obviously they lost. But I also notice that the people that won are splattered and dripping with the same sticky, gooy foul smelling mud. Interesting.

    I came to this place a while back. I needed something. A safe pace, with people of like mind to aid me in my recover... Read More

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It's been two years since I lost my Great-Grandma Arlee, and it hurts just as much as it did two years ago. I was her first great-grandchild and her living namesake (Caitlin Arlee). I was special because of that.

A lot of people never had a great-grandparent, but I did, and she meant so much to me. She helped raise me, and she was always an active part of my life. She was the most generous, giving, caring person that I knew. I looked up to her, I wanted (and still do) to have the wonde... Read More

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For some reason, I've been thinking a lot about my ex-fiancee.

We met in a psych hospital, but that relationship was doomed from the start. I was an emotional wreck and he had come into recovery for an addiction to alcohol and crack cocaine.

At first, we thought that we could support each other in our recovery, but in the end, all we did was drag each other down further and further.

But in all honesty, I still love him, I just couldn't put up with the bulls**t anymore. T... Read More

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Warning: This is a REALLY long blog. You don't have to read it unless you're: A.) really bored or B.) you love to listen to me BI**H =]

So I'm probably going to end up having to completley cut myself off from my oldest brother, which is really sad. It's just that I can't keep putting up with all the sh*t that he's put me through and the way he keeps acting. Just because he gets drunk doesn't mean that I: A.) Want to talk to him at all and B.) want to talk to him at 3:30am.

So he... Read More

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