....papers clutter the coffee table, index cards glow from highlighted text ...its that time...final exams.

Dudes it still seems so completely sureal. Here I sit studying,  reflecting...about the day  I came to realize I was a complete powerless wreck, a shell of a woman..mother...lover ...friend.  

I feel like I am being guided....  Sobriety has taken me to the other side of the looking glass: to the depth of life, the sinew of feelings, the vibrant... Read More

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I sat across from the lake and watched the water ripple  under the fountain.  I had Seger on my mp3 and turned it up.  I looked up across the lake; the  sunlight was slipping away  and just a bit shined down on the highest part of the church steeple that sat on the hill. It was funny how Seger and a church steeple can take me miles away and back in time.

Its a hot humid summer southern evening and yet when I close my eyes then open them I can smell a woody... Read More

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   Yesterday I went into what used to be, a small press that printed and bound my poetry.They joined up with a larger group and I wanted to see what they could do for me correcting some previous  omissions...apparantly they cannot do short runs cost effectively- so I may have to pay for 100 minimum of each book.That is going to be a toughie- where do you go to sell that kind of number on your own ?

   300 books - whew- and coming up with that kind of money, all... Read More

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Yesterday at church I stopped to chat with one of the regulars. When he gave me a quick hug, I thanked him and told him that I needed it. He responded saying that with my smile I didn’t look like I needed it and that my ‘Irish eyes’ were showing.

I don’t always think about the importance of a smile or how it affects me and others around me. I do try to smile especially when I’m out and about. It makes me feel good and many times,... Read More

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It’s been a good week for me. I’m sober and still staying away from sweets. I’ve started paying more attention to what and how much I’m eating too. So far, so good. I tried a high-protein bread. At first I wasn’t sure about the taste, but now I really like it and it stays with me.

My best friend is still in the hospital and still can’t have anything by mouth. OK – that part of my week sucks. I feel so bad for her. I... Read More

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