A Story of Recovery

The 1st thing I want people to know about me is that I am doing my best to be a woman / wife / mother after God's own heart. I have known God a long time, like an acquaintance. Going into recovery has put me into a much more intimate relationship with our Lord Jesus Christ. I feel as if I have been starving for a very long time and have finally found nutritious food as I read and meditate on multiple types of devot... Read More

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PLAYING LIFE FORWARD (and loving you)

Life moves forward whether we want it to or not. It never plays in reverse.
The past is past. Over. Finished. Our job is to move with the flow of the present. We are propelled by what went before, but we do not try to swim against the current of our present lives by regretting or yearning for old times. It is called your history!
Each day of  life recovery releases us from the past and gives us a fresh start. We can put behind us the mis... Read More

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So i had a discussion earlier today with my sponsor about my whole food problem and sex problem.

I am on step 6 too and he talked about His story with step 6 and how it took him 3 years to complete it. Basically just like all the other steps, but most like step 1, when i am beaten i become willing. I've been beaten, but am i smart enought o know when its time to stop getting beaten?

Than he explained to me Maslow's Hierarchy of needs dealing with food and my entire life. He said... Read More

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Hi,

I have to confess something. I have not been abusing my medication, i am prescribed two medicines, one for bipolar disorder and 1 for trazadone. And this has been buggin the s**t out of me today what my sponsor said to me. He said, "Your using!" "Its drug abuse, i kno you like to play around with your medication..." And im like... Im no longer in denial about that, I really am not. It like kind of shocked me that he said that. I've been workin so hard, blah blah blah... I have been... Read More

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I hate meetings, I hate Higher Power, I hate anyone who has a program. To all of you that come in contact with me, I wish you death and suffering. Allow me to introduce myself.

I am the disease of addiction-alcoholism-drugs. I am cunning, baffling and powerful. That's me! I have killed millions and I am pleased.

I love to catch you with the e... Read More

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