SO THIS IS CHRISTMAS!

It is that time of the year again, and I can honestly say that with the journey I’ve been on, I now really enjoy the day. The days of Depression and let down are gone. To all, I hope you have found or will find joy in the season.

I would like to thank all of you who visit our web site or read... Read More

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Hi everyone. This is Andera again. I am not sure what to put today, but i feel like i need to talk. I have more issues going on besides just recovering, although i can say that i have two weeks and 1 day under my belt for now. However, with my other issues it is such a struggle not to want to just crawl in my bed and hide. I have been diagnosed with Bipolar II / Mania, severe depression, Panic Disorder, and PTSD. Now we have found that the medication that i am taking is causing additional pro... Read More

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I'm new here. I didn't know this site existed. I'm glad though. I need some help, but at the same time, I have been resigned to my personal prison. I have been living in here for like two months now. Been kind of going back and forth through reality. I have been trying very hard to keep and close lock on reality, but I have not been doing a good job. I don't do a good job at anything. I can't even make it through the steps. That is what led me here. I have been trying to work these steps sinc... Read More

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This is more of a journal, but I have no other place to put it. Sorry if it seems scattered or in bits in pieces, I am in a bad way right now.

What I am not:

I am not a good person.
I am not a good mother.
I am not a good daughter.
I am not a good sister.
I am not a good wife.
I am not a good friend.

I am selfish.
I am depressed.
I am disgusting.
I am alone!!

I miss my sister so much, and I miss my husband. I believe he... Read More

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Why is it that when you get to a point where you feel that you can start to put the past behind you, the past smacks you in the face....so to speak?

In the last 2 days, both of my ex's have come to me to have 'the talk'. Why didn't it work out? Why couldn't we fix it? At what point did you know we couldn't fix it? What could I have done to make you happy?

As if rehashing all of this really helps anyone. So, for once in my life, I was honest. I didn't tell them what they... Read More

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