For the past week, I've come to realize that I need something more to do in life.

Well... Do I "need", or want?

I've worked hard on my recovery and staying sober that I'm getting burnt out on meetings! When I feel alone or bored, I go to meetings. At least going to meeting keeps me from dwelling in myself and self-pity that no one is around.

There has got to be something more than meetings!

I've had some friends make lists of things that I might be interested in:... Read More

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Today has been a really long day...

For some reason, I've been in a major funk lately and I'm having trouble pulling myself out of it. I'm going to see my doctor tomorrow (thank god) about the whole medication issue, but still...

I'm sure it doesn't help that my heart medication is causing me to have trouble sleeping (it even says in the side effects that it can cause nightmares), but I'm still having a lot of trouble adjusting to the major medication changes I've gone through o... Read More

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Written 2/1/08:

 I swear the little goblin will be coming out of the woodwork any second now to say, ok, I can tell you have had enough--I'm transporting you beyond this quaint, monotonous, and disorderly place to the other universe.  I was always sure that he must be coming--this s**t is usually way too confusing, boring, painful, or mindnumbingly pointless to appear God-given.   And even in moments that approach the divine I am generally on too much medication to fe... Read More

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