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Hello friends... This morning I opened my email and there was a message from a good friend on this site. I had had the usual daily-sent-to-everyone-comment s buts this was a sent-just-to-me-message, the first in about 2 months. About 2 months is how long I have been away from here, but I am back now.
No I wasn't in terrible relapse rolling semi-conscious in the aisles of some convenience store. It is true that I w... Read More
I have been away from you all, my new friends in recovery. My sponsor had me write this letter to God which says it all. Dear God, I dont know why I feel you should be upset with me. But I have that feeling. I know in my head you love me more than anyone does, but my heart and my gut isn't getting that message. What sounds (insanely) reasonable to me is that I do something really spectacular and self sacrificing to earn your love, but I know y... Read More
Damn! I guess I was getting cocky. Have been doing so well, but I have insomnia, probably from sleeping alone, not getting my physical needs met, as Jerry says. It is 3:42 am and I just went down and fixed myself breakfast. I cant do that. My food plan calls for three REGULAR meals, a snack maybe in the afternoon or mid morning if I call my sponsor to discuss it. I did not need food, I needed comfort. So what do I do now? I guess this is it. I cant call my sponsor in the middle o... Read More
Wow. Thre is so much to write, so much to get our of my system. I have allowed a family member to get under my skin and disturb my serenity. I almost ate over it. Called my sponsor while sitting in the car in front of a Burger King. Was ready to do major damage to myself with food binge. My sponsor wasn't home, left a message, but I needed to hang on to someone. Couldn't seem to connect with HP...probably because I was so full of hatefullness. Needed someone I felt close to so called a... Read More
Hello, All... I have been submersed in a big project, lots of 12th step stuff...which has saved me because I ahve been too exhausted to communicate here. Food is amazing considering my life lately. One near disaster, saved by grace, that was sugar I had at a church potluck. Did not lead to bingeing or other bad choices, thanks to HP and my program. I didnt overeat there and made other good choices...but for me,,,a brownie is like an alcoholic sipping on a beer...you just shouldn't do i... Read More
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