Subject: Who I want to be...
Content: I want to be untouched by my possesions instead of being possesed by what I touch, to test the taste of having nothing to call mine, to hold consumptions cravings back, to be content with luck or lack, to live as well on water as on wine. I want to feel the freedom to buy nothing to revel in the act of making do. I need to know my worth is something more than how I look, more than that today I want to learn to value you. No camouflage no entourage no smoothly fitting in I want a faith that goes further than face value and a beauty that goes deeper than my skin. I struggle with overspending, I fail to have any form of control over my budget and am constantly in debt. It is hurting me and my family, I spend on line, I over buy food, and cannot resist a bargin. All of this leads to a feeling of worthlessness for after the initial buzz of the purchase I feel guilty and deflated. Does anyone else struggle with this? I believe that it is becomming more and more common. I do not want to be who I am anymore. I want to be like this:
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