I WAS INTRODUCED TO DRUGS AND ALCOHOL VERY PREMATURELY IN MY LIFE AND IT ALL DEVELOP INTO MY WAY OF EXISTENCE VERY QUICKLY. IT DID NOT TAKE LONG BEFORE I WAS HAVING DIFFICULTIES WITH THE LAW AND MANY OTHER SITUATIONS. I WAS CONDEMNED TO A.A. BY THE COURTS AT AGE 20. I GREW TO LOVE THE PEOPLE AND THE WAY OF LIFE A 12 STEP PROGRAM HAS TO OFFER. HOWEVER, AFTER STAYING SOBER FOR TEN YEARS, I DETERMINED I WAS MY OWN HIGHER POWER AND DIDN'T REQUIRE THE PROGRAM OR GOD IN MY LIFE ANY MORE. I WAS TO SPEND THE NEXT 12 YEARS IN AND OUT OF DETOXS, HALF WAY HOUSES, JAILS, AND LOCKED UNITES. I WAS TO LOSE MY NURSING CERTIFICATION, MY MARRIAGE AND THE RIGHT TO SEE MY TWO BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN AND THAT WAS ONLY SCRATCHING THE SURFACE. THE LONELINESS AND FEAR WAS A VERY AGONIZING AND LOST WORLD TO RESIDE IN. I CAME BACK TO THE PROGRAM AND SURRENDERED. TODAY I AM A MEMBER IN GOOD STANDING IN THE FELLOWSHIP OF THE PROGRAM; I WORK THE STEPS IN MY LIFE ON A DAILY BASIS. I HAVE A WONDERFUL WIFE AND A LIFE SECOND TO NONE AND I AM MORE THEN HAPPY TO JOIN YOU ALL IN YOUR JOURNEY AS WE TRUDGE THE ROAD TO LOVE UNDERSTANDING AND ACCEPTANCE!
I need to tell you that I am very greatful for all you've done for me here...I know I don't offer much support and encourgement like I should and I'm not making excuses but it takes all I have, emotionally, mentally and physically when I post something personal from my life...And, after I do that, I always disappear for a while so I can get my head wrapped around what has happened...But you are always there for me and I wish that I could give you a hug to show my appreciation, but I can't...All I can give you are my words...Thank you from the bottom of my heart for not giving up on me, for supporting me and consoling me...
Hi Philip, Good statement about not confusing motion for progress. I know sometimes I could get really busy and ignore my recovery stuff and my moods go downhill fast. I am grateful to stay connected to my meetings, my friends from the meetings and my Higher Power. And also to really not compare myself with others either as I know I am doing okay for me. Bye for now. Happy to be in recovery and living the steps in my life with my Higher Powers help. Sincerely, Connie
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