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All God's children got the blues.

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Female
31 years old
California
United States
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JOB: Other
ADDICTION: Multiple Addictions
SEEKING: Support
RELIGION: Other
PERSONALITY TYPE: Enthusiast
WORKING STEP: Step 1
SOBRIETY YEAR: 2008
SOBRIETY MONTH: 11
SOBRIETY DAY: 16
MEMBER SINCE: 10/29/2008
STAR SIGN: Pisces
LAST LOGIN: 12/11/2008 18:02:35
MY RATING: 0.00

Funk, Blues, Mo-Town, Jazz, Traditional Native stuff...My mood dictates what I listen to, so a little bit of everything.

The Fast Runner, Smoke Signals, Amelie, Goodfellas, Godfather II, Sin City, The English Patient, Superbad, Animal House, City of God, All Kevin Smith, Coehn Bro.s, and Scorcese movies...

Candide, The Lone Ranger and Tonto Fistfight in Heaven, The Unbearable Lightness of Being, The Prophet, The Dictionary, Brown Bear Brown Bear What Do You See? lol

Art. Filmmaking.

11/19/2008 01:16:13
11/16/2008 21:28:03
11/16/2008 11:04:20






Born and raised on an Indian Reservation, I am from a broken people, broken culture and broken hearts. It was never more evident than in my father's generation, where the culture had been destroyed by the confines of the Rez. The men, no longer able to provide for their families, began drinking...and drowned. My father was my best friend, understanding everything of my soul, but felt a hunger he could not feed, it was bigger than himself. I was taken from him at a young age and asked "Why can't Daddy quit drinking if he loves us?" Grandma would say, "Because you can't love anyone more than you love yourself, Papow."
Years passed...
When I was old enough, I came back to my father. There was only one way to spend time, we'd lose ourselves to the influence of whatever we could get our hands on. I thought it was love and understanding, I felt as if I had my best friend back, all the pain of losing him vanished. True "drug camaraderie". He taught me how to use, and now I've wasted years feeding a hunger that is never satisfied.

My beautiful Indian son was born in June of '06. Four months ago, he was diagnosed with autism. The pain & grieving never stop. I cry because it is so much like losing your child. He is a neurological cripple, struck down by modern medicine and environmental pollutants.

Now, I must quit all of this, because he needs me, and I love him so much more than the party.

Water. Lavender. Sage. Abalone. Corn tortillas. Cuddling. Intellect. Worldliness. Philosophy... Not necessarily in that order.
I am an artist, so love all things creative. I sew, basketweave, bead, paint, draw, write. My favorite is documentary photography and filmmaking.

Intolerance to special needs children and adults. Cruelty. Vaccinations. Racism. Hangovers. Wet socks.



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01/01/2009 19:46:15

aNiMaL rings in the New Year




12/25/2008 13:16:44



12/25/2008 09:27:01

Nola
Hope your Christmas is blessed!
Karie



12/24/2008 16:29:47

Merry Christmas



12/23/2008 11:02:21

Hi Nola - just drop'n in to check n with my recovery friends here & say hi. Its been hectic at work but I still love my job. I hope you are doing alright.

peace, shannon



12/18/2008 12:35:14

Nola
I thought of you and stopped by to wish you health and happiness in 2009.
Karie



12/17/2008 13:03:23

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12/13/2008 00:36:08

hey you. You're almost at a month now. Do you have a sponsor to work step 1 with?

My sponsor doesn't want me to vent to him he just wants me to report. He's not there for my complaining and biting lol. He's there for a guide thru the steps. He's saved my life, he truly as, and hes the greatest relationship i got with someone in the program today. he'll let me vent for 5 min but thats it and than he'll give me the real input on my venting and the cause.


Aww dude, I just had acupuncture done today! The nerve points and stress points are still like aching and killing me, i could feel amost where the needles were its so weird. But i hope it works, i hope i dont have a flippin ulcer from drugs lol!! Or a tumaR! lol.

I'm such a hypo, just like harpo marx. I hope you have a great nite, and a great day. What counts most is today, not the past, nor the future.

If you have a big book or are into AA, let me know. I've been really into it lately. Have you read the promises? pg 83 the Alcoholics Anonymous big book.



12/11/2008 13:14:12


12/10/2008 00:19:45

hi nola,

just wanted to encourage you...thought you might like a few pics on my page

Belushi always makes me laugh

god bless...Chibato




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