Belle and Sebastian, Sun Kil Moon, The Weepies, Stars, Siouxsie, The Briefs, Pixies, Bright Eyes, Broken Social Scene, Angus and Julia Stone, Jens Lekman, The Arcade Fire, The Postal Service, The Strokes, Lou Reed, The Velvet Underground, The Mountain Goats, Modest Mouse, Leonard Cohen, Elliott Smith, Regina Spektor, Rilo Kiley, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, The Smiths, The Libertines, The Ramones, The Clash, The Weakerthans, Tilly and the Wall, New York Dolls, The Cure, New Order, Mary Lou Lord, Jon Brion, Death Cab for Cutie, Emmylou Harris, Manic Street Preachers, Babyshambles, Dirty Pretty Things, Morrissey, The Beatles, The Briefs, Turbonegro, Chet Baker, The Vaselines, Amy Winehouse, Ella Fitzgerald, Damien Jurado, Daniel Johnston, Nirvana, Hole, Bikini Kill, The Dandy Warhols, Radiohead, Thom Yorke, The Dead Milkmen, The Decemberists, Tegan and Sara, Desaparecidos, The Faint, The Magnetic Fields, Gregory and the Hawk, Harry and the Potters, Iron and Wine, Nick Drake, Kimya Dawson, The Moldy Peaches, Neutral Milk Hotel, Of Montreal, The Organ, The Shins, The Radio Dept, Say Hi to Your Mom, Rufus Wainwright, The Sex Pistols, Smashing Pumpkins, Sufjan Stevens, The Zombies, Wilco, The Invisible Cities, MC Frontalot, The Long Winters.

Trainspotting, SLC Punk, The King and I, The Trouble With Angels, Minority Report, Children of Men.

I like a lot of different poetry. Arthur Rimbaud is my hero. Bukowski, Neruda, Paul Éluard Anne Sexton, Kadya Molodowsky, Miguel Hernandez, Basho Matsuo, Kobayashi Issa, James Galvin, Yehuda Amichai, Sylvia Plath, Baudelaire, Jorge Luis Borges, Jan Zwicky, Carol Ann Duffy, Brian Patten, Edward Hirsch Aharon Shabtai. Also, Annie Dillard, Richard Ford, Albert Camus, Henry Miller, Ray Bradbury. Mrs. Dalloway, Crime and Punishment, anything by Nietzsche, The Bell Jar, Franny and Zooey, Catcher in the Rye, A Clockwork Orange, The Awakening, Tropic of Cancer, The Rules of Attraction, Ronia, The Robber's Daughter, All Quiet on the Western Front, Fight Club, The Torn Skirt, Holy the Firm, Drastic, First, Body, 1984, A Separate Peace, Lolita, The Corrections, The Hours, City of Joy, Five Past Midnight in Bhopal, Self Help by Lorrie Moore, Balzac and the Little Chinese Seamstress, The Virgin Suicides, The Stranger, Dangerous Angels, and Our Lady of the Flowers.

My name is Linnea and I'm seventeen years old. A long road of emotional instability has plagued me and contributed to my addictions and compulsive behavior. I was diagnosed as ADD and with significant learning disabilities in elementary school and, although I excelled in certain subjects, my achievement never matched my potential and I quickly learned to think of myself in very fatalistic terms. I believed that I could never amount to anything and this low self-worth was compounded by severe depression and by self-injury (cutting, burning, hitting) that began at age nine. I was to be diagnosed with bipolar disorder at age fifteen. I began smoking pot multiple times a day at age thirteen and graduated to cocaine, speed, and pills, at fifteen. By sixteen, I was using heroin and in the throes of an eating disorder which eventually led my parents to pursue treatment for me. Now, I'm looking t define my life by something other than the substances in it. I know that if I don't find something else to guide my life I will be dead or homeless by the time I'm 25.

reading, writing poetry, nature, Christmas in the city, playgrounds at midnight, camel wides, thai food

ignorance, panic attacks, feeling helpless