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Kismet0826
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Female
38 years old
Houston, Texas
United States
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PERSONALITY TYPE:
Thinker
ORIENTATION:
Straight
JOB:
Business
RELIGION:
Christian
ADDICTION:
Multiple Addictions
SEEKING:
Support
MEMBER SINCE: 08/19/2008
LAST LOGIN: 09/23/2008 12:14:08
MY RATING: 0.00

I don't really have a favorite type of music, I have favorite songs. And that just depends on my mood.

I loved the "Dresden Files" books. I've read them all. Can't really get focused on a book right now.

Action movies, thrillers.

World of Warcraft. Going to have to get some more, and soon...






My name is Tamara. My friends call me Tam. I am married to an alcoholic. I am in therapy for love addiction, and codependency. Great mix, huh? Alcoholic and love-aholic. We had some good years, but this weekend I am moving out. Our daughter is coming with me. She's almost 6. I have found this inner part of me that I was certain was gone. It feels good to make decisions based on what I want. It feels good to be able to go somewhere and not worry what he's thinking, or if he's getting made because the line is too long, or there's too many people, or any hundred of other things it could be. It's nice to live for me, and for my little girl.

I still have these moments where I can feel my recovered strength slipping. I want to save him. I want him with me. I want him to love me. But it's just not possible. I don't think I could ever be "healthy" with him. Even if he did get sober. He is a black hole of misery, and he completely overwhelms me. But I love him still.

So I am moving...I am taking the necessary steps to move my life forwards. I'm scared. But I feel liberated. I feel hopeful...

I want to thank everyone for putting their lives out her for all to read. It is helpful for me to talk with folks on both sides of alcoholism and codependency. I'm glad to know I am not the only one...

Lots of things. Strawberries, soft towels, the smell of fresh cut grass. I love my daughter.

My main pet peeve is twisted phone cords, they just irritate the ever-livin' outta me. But I don't like most vegetables. I don't like who I am right now.

Kismet0826 has 4 friend(s)



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From: Carrot
11/17/2008 11:14:45

Hi there, just stopping by to send some love your way!

//Lennart



From: flowerchildofjc
08/27/2008 13:30:37

I dont have a favorite type of music or a favorite singer or group either...it is totally dependent on my mood as shown on my playlist on my page:)
God Bless
-Jessie



From: flowerchildofjc
08/26/2008 00:04:31



From: flowerchildofjc
08/23/2008 12:52:23



From: DennisS
08/21/2008 17:49:51

Tam -
     I'd be honored to be a friend.
     Reading your Bio and having been on the other side of you current situation I do understand your frustrations. There are ways to help yourself. I hope that he will also accept the direction he needs in his life...
Take care,
Dennis

OBTW - They invented cordless phones to eliminate TWAS (Twisted Cord Anger Syndrome). But then you end up with WTDPS ( Where's The Darn Phone Syndrome).



From: DennisS
08/20/2008 17:51:03

Howdy and welcome to a good place...
Dennis



From: donnaorsatti
08/20/2008 16:49:39

Just wanted to say HI and WELCOME



From: flowerchildofjc
08/20/2008 02:28:01

welcome to a good place for support:)




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