Too many to list. I try to read a book a day.

Gym, sports, reading, smoking too many cigs.

Never met a drug I couldn't put down.....until I started taking prescription pain killers. As a teen I tried almost everything. When I started wanting coke a little too much, I had a bad experience, and never did it again. Started dating older men, and taking Xanax is HS. I skipped school for literally half the year, but still graduted b/c school was never that difficult for me. I was one of those people that was the best at anything I tried (especially sports). When I got out of HS, I went away to college, but partied my way back home. My friend's Mom introduced me to Tramadol, and that was the beginning of my addiction. I didn't know at the time, but she had been addicted to narcotics for years. My husband and I would get scripts called in constantly. When that supply ran out, we found a perk dealer. Eventually I tried rehab, but only lasted a day. I have a love hate relatinship with rehab. I hate what some people (including myself) have done, yet I want to protect them. I have to learn to speak up, because I tend to be a listener as opposed to a talker. My biggest fear is that I will relapse again. I have so much guilt and shame that comes along with being an addict, and I need to get over that. I also need to figure out how everybody manages to beat their brain when an urge to use comes on. I have gone through therapy, but even the therapist told me he ended up talking to me about his life, instead of me telling my life story. I don't like failure, and that is why I am scared. I am scared I will have no energy and be a horrible Mom. I am scared I can't do it. Most of all, I fear that I will ruin my children, and I cannot bear that burden.

People who see two sides to every story. People who think too much. People who are funny. Animals. Old people and some kids. Music. Some movies. BOOKS! Playing sports, but not watching them (unless it's tennis).

Girly girls (though some are cool), fashion that shouldn't be fashion, addicts who think you're not enough of an addict. People who think obesity is a disease, but addiction isn't. People who don't have a sense of humor. People who think they know it all. People who think that if you don't believe in God you're amoral.