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Working towards that sanity..

mem_normal OFFLINE
Female
19 years old
Illinois
United States
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JOB: Student
ADDICTION: Overeating
SEEKING: Support
RELIGION: Christian
ORIENTATION: Bi
PERSONALITY TYPE: Thinker
WORKING STEP: Step 2
MEMBER SINCE: 06/26/2008
STAR SIGN: Taurus
LAST LOGIN: 07/04/2008 19:36:41
MY RATING: 0.00






I am a nineteen year old female who has been on a rollercoaster of recovery for years..

I have always been over-weight. Yo-yo dieting was apart of my every other day routines. I would lose weight, stop, gain some back, lose some, stop, gain some back - you get the picture.

Over a year ago I decided to lose weight for my senior prom and fell into the ruins of a life-threatening and what appeared to be a 'never ending' vicious eating disorder. I was anorexic and bulemic - I ate only a little to satisfy loved ones - then would do horrible and exhausting workouts to work off what I had ate.. I only sat down when it was time to sleep, and even then I would get up in the middle of the night so I could take walks without anyone knowing. Over a 6 month period I lost nearly 80 pounds..

With the help of family and my fiance (all of whom endured a lot of pain and suffering because of my addiction) I decided this could no longer define who I am..

Then I started eating.. and eating.. and eating.. at first it seemed great - I was gaining weight and everyone was happy. But then I became yet another unbearable cycle - binge eating.

Every night I would wake up while my fiance was sleeping and pig out - consuming a days worth of calories in one sitting. I would eat light around every one else, and then would look forward to the time I would have alone, just to find myself in the kitchen standing over the sink. I tried hiding the boxes and wrapper. Inevitably they were found by my fiance (who is also my room-mate). I have since gained almost ninety-five total pounds.

I continue to deal with my problem and hope to find some sort of sanity within the twelve step program. With the help of 'the book' and my boyfriend - I believe it's possible.

Being with family and friends,reading, writing, walking, coloring, camping, church, photography, getting online, pixar movies, friends, family, college, highlighters, post-it notes, and board games. I spend most of my time working at the local library, hanging out at my apartment, and a lot of church stuff.

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06/28/2008 23:09:52

Welcome -
    You found a good place...
Dennis



06/26/2008 23:29:09





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